A Promise Kept- My Mother’s Story

People also leave presence in a place even when they are no longer there.”
Andy Goldsworthy

I usually don’t get deep into my personal life unless it’s with my closest family and friends. This story is one exception. It’s a story I feel needs to be shared with as many people as possible because of these facts,  My Mom felt that this was her purpose and I made a silent promise to my Mom that I intended to keep. This is her story.

Today (January 16th) it has been 2 years since my Mom passed. It’s so hard for me to believe sometimes. There are days when I feel as though a part of me is still in denial.

My Mom bravely battled lung cancer for almost 2 years. Originally they wanted to operate on her and remove the tumor but, the surgery was unsuccessful. The next option was chemo. My Mom tried 3 different chemo-therapies in hopes of having the tumor shrink. The chemo wasn’t working so the next step was to try radiation.  Constant trips to the hospital for chemo and later on  radiation took a toll on her body. These trips often led to short hospital stays that lasted a few days to a few weeks. Soon it just seemed like a blur of doctors, tests, and hospital rooms. It was an agonizing wait for each test result to see if the tumor was shrinking or perhaps maybe the cancer would go in to remission. It seemed the answers only got worse, the tumor was growing and on top of that there was a good chance that the spots on her liver were malignant.  The doctors were always blunt and straight forward from the beginning that the odds were against my Mom.

However, that didn’t stop my Mom from smiling, from laughing, from enjoying every moment of her life as much as she could. I remember having a conversation with her about her having cancer, she told me she believed that there was a greater purpose for her having to suffer and that it wasn’t meant to be in vain. Her eyes lit up when she was telling me maybe she was meant to be a public speaker to encourage people not to smoke or maybe with her story she could inspire others. It was then that I made that silent promise that no matter what happened her suffering would not be in vain.

Her ability to still find joy and laughter in the darkest of times remains one of my own biggest inspirations in my life. I strive to start everyday being grateful for what I have and remembering to smile. She always used to say to me that life is too short to be miserable. I still to this day hear her saying that.

With my Mom’s vision of inspiring others my sister and I have created a page to honor her and share her story as well as raise money for cancer research.

http://main.acsevents.org/goto/Team_Bonnie

I want to thank all of you that read this and read her story on her page, it means more than words to my sister and I.

In honor of  my Mom, my best friend and one of my guardian angels in Heaven. I love you.

Bonnie Corbin

September 3rd, 1954- January 16th 2011

A loving Mom, Grandma and friend.

Proud Mom

Proud Mom

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  1. #1 by ddog13 on January 17, 2013 - 3:41 am

    God bless her. The fact that you are carrying out her words is a powerful act. It was completely correct for you to share this with the viewers that you have and will obtain in the future.

  2. #3 by parmis rad on January 17, 2013 - 4:43 am

    I am so saddened for you loss. You are a kind and beautiful soul. She lives on through you and your sister. Keep doing what you are doing …

  3. #5 by Karen Rought on January 20, 2013 - 3:01 pm

    I have so many fond memories of your mom. Sometimes I forget how long we’ve known each other and that we practically grew up together. I remember visiting you guys soon after she was diagnosed and had already been going through her treatments. I didn’t know what to expect, but it wasn’t the laughing and smiling person I was seeing. In some ways, your mom seemed even brighter after she was diagnosed, and I absolutely believe that it was because she knew her story would not go unheard. You’re the strongest person I know, Nicole, and I’m so proud of the person you’ve become despite all the hardship you’ve been through. But even more than that, your mom is proud of you too. She’s still here, watching out for you, and you couldn’t ask for a better guardian angel than that.

    • #6 by twistofamillennia on January 22, 2013 - 2:06 am

      Karen,
      This comment means so much to me and it’s beautiful to hear these kind of stories of my mom’s positivity from someone. Totally inspires to me to keep going with everything, not just keeping her story and memory alive. Thank you.

  4. #7 by Simple Pleasures on February 26, 2013 - 10:22 pm

    Karen, Love and blessings to you-
    You and your family are a true inspiration for us all.

  5. #8 by twistofamillennia on March 4, 2013 - 1:04 am

    Thank you for your kind words, My Mom is smiling down knowing that she can inspire 🙂

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